THE WALL.

DATE: 02-08-2025: Time 8.31 am

Raldo woke up half past 8 that day since he slept pretty late after his wife gave him a small party at 12 am earlier that day.. its been like that from the start, his wife Chrisa would give gifts and cut the cake when the special day starts and same happens for her birthday.

Now Raldo has a unique habit of zooming and crunching into his past in his mind when he is not focused on anything. Needless to mention, now, this morning was a very good stage for it as it was a holiday and his wife was busy preparing breakfast- a very special food for him for the special day. He got up, prayed and stuck his eyes on the wall which gave him no bright relfection or radiance, appeared as pale as it can be. Well, Raldo went into his past. Past as in 10 years back in time. His memory slowly cracked open like a chocolate wrapper and ........ there he goes.

Time spiraled 10 years back in front of his eyes, his heart started beating a little faster.

AUGUST 2015
Well he was 30 years back then. Working in an outsourcing company, Raldo was rolling with his job but not so excited about his monthly pay package which was just enough for living the life where he worked. Life went on with laughs, cries, happiness, disappointments, days and nights.. good food and bad food.. good air and bad air,  rain and scorching heat, smiles and frowns, journeys, few good friends, some not so good friends.. some who judged him heavily, few who encouraged him...

Some burdens he put on his shoulders with his consent and some he got from others. Most of his troubles had root from his own actions, thoughts and his words. Life was going on as an express train of bad decisions as bogies. The engine was tired of pulling these heavy bad choices and decisions Raldo took.

Overlooking the whole lot of mess in his life with enormous sarcasm, he would rise up everyday with some false hopes and shaky faith. Went through the day seeing what other do and seeing how others handle their stuff. Counting the blessings others had while he didn't. Well not saying he was completely negative about his direction of journey, but he didn't know who he really was and what he was supposed to do.
//SORRY FOR THE INTERRUPTION. CAN WE SEE THIS AS PRESENT TENSE INSTEAD OF GIVING PAST TENSE TO EACH AND EVERYTHING? YES? ok.//

So yeah, he doesnt know the bigger picture, at this juncture, only God knows that. If we compare his life with a railway station, he was a passenger waiting for his train on the platform with all the comforts a railway station platform can offer but doesnt know clearly which train is best for his destination... Worse still, he had a few destinations in his mind about which he knew nothing about.

Today, 15-08-2015.
Raldo sitting in office with foggy mind. He was overhearing his colleagues talking with great excitement and frolic after they interviewed one 40 yr old guy for a comparatively junior position for his age, clearly they were amused at a couple of things... Raldo's interest in this conversation heightened when he knew more about the 40 yr old.....

... to be continued

Showers are coming.

India is sizzling in monsoon season now. Well, cool monsoon breeze is hitting my mind space lately too. Expect some rain on this page soon. It may be a drizzle... a torrential spray of words.. with some snowy touch. After 5 years, I can sense the clouds in my mind getting bulkier than they have ever been and ready to rain.

Humans fail Big time.

I have a question about something i am sure nobody in this world can answer.Instead of asking you right away, I would like to bring you to that tiny question. Keep any 2 of you finger tips facing each other  (preferably ur right n left pointing fingers). And with minute movements(really minute), draw them nearer...more nearer with micro movements..But as u realize by now, we don't have that much ability to be moving our finger tips constantly near for a prolonged period till the tips touch (i assume even most advanced machines have limited ability for this because there is no chance of absolution in this). And yeah.. our finger tips would touch each other very fast.

Lets imagine we are doing this with the help of most advanced and precision machinery in the world.. lets call that machine "X". we insert our two fingers in the slots of the machine "X". and the two slots are drawing near.. nearer and nearer to an extend to which we can't even see the Gap between our finger tips. But when we see with a microscope, yes.. there is plenty of gap between our finger tips... and we activate the machine "X" again..the fingers draw nearer and we can't see the gap with our microscope. will the human mind accept defeat.? NO. We see though Electronic microscope...The Gap is tremendous. there is so much space between our fingers still!!..

This goes on n on till our finger tips touch and we record down the latest distance measured between our finger tips just before the machine made its final move. It may be.. lets say.. 0.00000000001 micro metre? or whatever smallest unit you know of.

MY QUESTION IS.. IS IT THE MINIMUM POSSIBLE DISTANCE BETWEEN TWO OBJECTS.? Answer should be NO. BUT ITS JUST THE MINIMUM DISTANCE BETWEEN TWO OBJECTS WHICH IS MEASURABLE BY HUMANS. Please think about it.

SOME might be thinking y am i highlighting this case of smallest measurement while we dont even know the size or extend of the universe.. Well these are things which we can't even have a picture of.. But for the maximum proximity of the finger tips, we are so incapable of finding out the precise answer.

I have heard people say.. Nothing is impossible by humans. But I persuade you to taste the truth... most of the things are not possible by us... Wanna know the reason why..?
Because some of our findings/inventions will have a conflict with our imagination and our reasoning. In this case,  if at all we find a measurement of the least possible distance between two objects, our imagination will QUESTION us.. why can the objects be some more nearer..? there we fail.! There we fail in front of our imagination.. in front of our own self. Am I right?

Well, all these are my personal findings.. if you have conflicts, please let the world know and include me also. :)

Lastly, I am not worthy to teach you. But just sharing the amusement... More of this topic next week.

To Be Continued...

God Bless.

Grass and the Beer can.

Once upon a time, on a dry bare land.., Among the millions of brown dead grasses, one healthy flake of grass asked an empty beer can which can be alive for only a bit, till the last drop of its 'golden' aerated blood evaporates... " how was your life..." Beer can knew the grass flake was asking for the sake of askin something so that it can continue the conversation to askin a drop of water.

but the Beer can answered: "Was painful.. in fact.. a hundred times painful than the agony which i have now thinking of preserving my last trinket of blood."
"Ohh Good God, Mr Beer Can" Exclaimed the grass flake.. "from the time you were born, u were preserved in an airconditioned room.. with 330 ml of blood inside your vein-less polished body.. with aesthetic patterns on your skin... You had all the environmental favors you've ever wanted. although you are in a bad shape today.. your life was a bed of roses wasn't it.. look at my eyes my shiny friend..

The beer can was not any deficit of words but was in tears. He was trying to weep silently but to his bold image there were stains of sobs.
Very well said my greeny friend... So well said that I could even forget my lament over this. But its NOT.. Nobody can wipe my tears at this time my friend.. nobody. To some extend, You were right mr grass.. I was very lucky.. in fact far luckier than my creators who were working day and night to create my body and blood, and people who were striving hard to preserve my freshness and thus making me proud of my birth.

Enlightenment dawned over me one day when i saw my friends being squeezed off their blood which is drunk by the People. I was shocked like hell. Just then my knowledgeable friend told me that our life's purpose is such a thing.. to be consumed by someone. We need to serve our life's purpose. As straight forward as I was, I was happy about it. I was getting ready day by day for my salvation.

But I didn't know I was BOUGHT for some peices of schillings which a man gave to my shopkeeper. Lucky you my greeny friend.. Nobody would buy you in the path of your salvation.. you can serve your life's mission by being cushion for people's feet..

I was BOUGHT for a cheap value which I never expected.. now I am a dying piece of metal with two or three drops of life...Grass was tearing by this time. Before he could console, Beer Can had his last molecule of blood dried up.

The Grass said to himself hoping that Mr Beer Can will hear it from his imaginary after-death world, "you had your life's purpose served not only by quenching people's thirst but also by being a carrier of the water which was snatched from my earth with which my friends would have been alive to serve their purpose in life without dying off prematurely.
But I forgive you for neither you nor I are the culprits.. but the person reading this."

God bless,
Preserve water.

THE BUOYANCY IN OCEAN BED

Those vertical random beautifuly spraying black/grey lines...ill-shaped dots,... in short, marks/scratches on the film role which is an inevitable and the most desirable imperfection in olden days' movies... usually as a result of manual editing (trust me photograph of an editing room has nearly knocked me down). Though you wont find these scratch marks on some very old movies. The reason I leave it for you to guess. Something we miss in these days of digital editing.(Lifeless editing).

Atleast for certain scattered periods in my life, I wanted to be a movie theatre operator.. where I can happily operate the projector machines and feel the privilage to decide which all reels we have to show the audience. And most importantly see all the movies...watch them to my heart's content. No other pleasure had its mark on my life other than watching those flickering images on the silver screen. (Although most of the time, I was inclined to aircrafts and dreamt about flying...but thts a completely different block in my dream complex.).

Whole purpose of spraying your eyes with movie paint, is to deceive your senses. This deceit lasts for a while till u plunge deep into the ocean of life again. We have our own re-chargers or re-surfacers(in my vocabulary..) which help us stretch ourselves above the ever pressurizing ocean surface.. AND BREATHE. like a flying fish... And Movies, to me, are simply one of those.

God Bless

Jus a bit of S.o.r.r.(o.w).y

Common problem among us Indians.. to use the word "sorry" as a verb instead of a noun. Come on ppl.. We can't give or ask for a "sorry". Sorry is not a thing.. its a state of mind which can be described as the noun of sorrow..  YES.. we could get/give some "sorrow" frm/to others ofcourse. but not "sorry"!
Same case with the word - "foreign"... but I dun need to elaborate on this DO I?
God Bless

This reminds me of Tigerwoods incident.. Jus wondering if it is really important that a popular SPORTSMAN shd apologize to the public (To his Fans acc to him) abt being unfaithful to his wife..?The only person whom he was bound to be faithful was his wife n his family..I just dont understand why these popular figures have their personal life open to the public like a book open from FOUR sides.

The four dollar story

Simply be rich .. n have plenty.. thou Shalt not want.
 My mind is too simple and un-complicated to make me rich.. This sentence I have been clinging on... for years.
The path to richness (richness=Enough money for All of our Needs) is jus easy... way too easy than you think.. its a snake n ladder game between your happiness and your circumstances. n not a grumpy chess game as most of us think...

This is a simple (sometimes time consuming..[sometimes] ) process for those who KNOW.
now you must be scrolling down this webpage to see of therez any "mastercard" or "Visa" icons or any cliche bold red fonts in a stupid dotted box! .. but "fortunately or unfortunately (I got a hang of this usage frm my beloved wife whom I Miss So Much)", you wont find those junks here...

First of all, Trust the author. :) .
Secondly, make ur mind simple (by seeing things as less complicated including being rich).
PLS TAKE NOTE>> its not a "Become rich" class. Its just an enlightenment to all souls who think that its out of their reach (rhyming? oops out of subject!).. or those of you who are not getting a start (everything has to start somewhere).
Most possible and realistic pathway to "thou shalt not want" state. To make it more realistic (like its not realistic enough), lets imagine we are starting a journey, from poorville to richston.. start your engine...

1. we are seeing money coming to us usually through a single source of income. We sit in office and work, Go for lunch, have tea, go home, hav dinner n ZzzZzz.
To save some nominal amount of money, lets say, we brought something from home..instead of eating from outside. I suppose we save atleast $4. Wait!! Before you close this page, lemme make myself clear I am not talking rubbish here by saying you all can be millionaires by saving $4 a day..but that $4 will be the milestone of your life on which will be written-"I started here".

2. For a person like me, Saving a penny would be making me proud enough to give me the confidence to save another penny :). so imagine the determination and happiness it would give when we save $4 one day.. That $4 would make us happy not because we have $4 in our savings account (which we can use to buy a bunglow and a car ofcourse), but because we defeated the inertia we all had.. to start saving money..

3. That happiness which we gain from saving a nominal amount day by day, will give us the ability and the courage to look into our money matters seriously and you will start to "Handle" money effectively. the method will differ for individuals some may work harder to make the $4 to $40. but if we save 0 a day, i don't think you would work harder to change the "0". but since your cup is quarter full, you will have the determination to fill it. if There is no cup at all, nobody will be concerned about it.
This is the longest but the most promising of all the steps in the journey stated here..

4. Its all about inertia to look into the money "section" or "stream" in our lives. We may have
multiple streams or tracks in our life like- Love life, Work, Business, Shelter, Friends, Hobbies etc.. but at this stage, you will have a serious member: Money stream.. and you will have the control to regulate it.. Or in other words, You will have the mental courage and confidence to handle it.

Save $4 a day.. and you will start to save $40 a day the VERY NEXT YEAR.
TAKE IT FROM ME. AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, DON'T ASK ME HOW.. well jokes apart, That "HOW" will depend on an individual's personal talents and interests..
FOR ALL these, we have one pre-requisite.. have a continuous source of income.. may it be $100 a month.. but have an income.. and start you $4 savings.. you will soon be reaching Richston..Without u even knowing.

SO GOOD LUCK..
God Bless you all.

Crammed journey. !^%$#@

The Following text is a sketch of my mind during my journey to work ONLY. Spoiler alert: Lot of negative energy!
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ARGGHH. I really have to go to an open place n shout! ALL thEsE.!




DREAMS BROKE,! EYES ARE OPENED WITH A CREAKY SOUND..
ROOM TO BATHROOM!!! WITH ONLY ONE THOUGHT IN MIND.. TO SLEEP! AND WIND.

HOUSE DOOR SHUT OR NOT SHUT! WHO CARES.! JOINTS IN MY LEGS RESISTS TO MOBILISE THE BODY ABOVE.....
LIKE THEY NEED A LUBRICANT TO MOVE...

ELEVATORS SHOULD HAVE COZY SOFAS... WHERE I STAND LIKE A MAN WHO HAS A BULLET SHOT ON HIS BACK!.

WALK.. WALK... WHERE IS THE LRT... WALK... WALK..

steps... MY LIFETIME ENEMY..! STILL CLIMBING STEPS..WOW.! REACHED LRT.. TAPPING ON THE GATE...HAHAH MY EZLINK VALUE. -2.20. HAVE TO TOP UP.. THE MACHINE SAYS!

PULLING MY BODY TO THE SIDE... I FEEL LIKE THE MUSCULAR FORCE THAT I PUT IN TO MOVE MY BODY, IS BEING WASTED FOR EXTRA FRICTION..!!!!!!!!!

CHAPTER.1.- FREEZING
VILLAIN: L.R.T
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LRT.. THE REFRIGERATOR. BLOWS THE ARCTIC ICE RIGHT INTO MY CONGESTED THROAT... WOW.. WHAT A FEELING. OUT OF THE WORLD FEELING.

CHAPTER 2.- RUNNING BEHIND SLEEP.
VILLAIN: M.R.T GRRRRRRRRRRrrr

REACHING PUNGGOL. GOT DOWN FROM THE COOLER COMPARTMENT. RUNNING FOR THE TRAIN SHIVERING.
INSIDE THE TRAIN..! TRAIN ALMOST FILLED THOUGH PUNGGOL IS THE FIRST STATION.(PPL FROM OTHER STATIONS GET INTO THE TRAIN TILL LAST STATION TO GET SEATS)
WELL.. ALWAYS MANAGE TO GET A SEAT. TRAIN DEPARTS.
I TRY TO CLOSE MY EYES. .BUT CANT SLEEP. I TRY DIFFERENT BODY POSITIONS BEING CRAMMED IN MY SEAT. SOMETIMES I USE MY LAPTOP BAG AS A PILLOW N JUST CROUCH MYSELF..! GOD.. I DUNNO Y ITS NOT WORKING EITHER. BODY IS PAINING LIKE A.N.Y.T.H.I.N.G.!! CAN NEVER SLEEP.! SO JUST CONTINUED TO CLOSE MY EYES!
HEARD ANNOUNCEMENT: NEXT STATION: HARBOURFRONT. MY STATION. JUS 3 MINS AWAY....I THINK THATS THE MAGICAL PHRASE WHICH SETS MY ENTIRE BODY TO SLEEP.! I SLEEP SOUNDLY.................................................................SUDDENLY WAKING UP TO AN OFFICER SAYING THIS IS THE LAST STATION. REALISING I SHOULD GET UP... BUT EXPERIENCING THE SAME LETHARGIC FEELING AS WAKING UP FROM BED.! GOD...

GOT DOWN.. WALKING TOWARDS TAPPING AREA TO GET OUT ... WALKED TO THE BUS STOP.. . . .. SOME PPL WOULD FEEL THAT IM WALKING ASLEEP...!!! WITH MY HEADS BOWED...EYES ARE BARELY OPEN... ONLY THING THT SEEMS ALIVE IS MY LEG!!!

CHAPTER 3. SBS TRANSIT...COZY ONE..THE BUS COMES..! 166 OR 97.... TRUELY SPEAKING... THIS 15 MINS BUS RIDE TO SCIENCE PARK HEALS THE FRUSTRATION AND MADNESS IN MY MIND. FEELS LIKE HEAVEN!

Thoughts are the most efficient fuels for life.

Not many. Not all. Not a few. as unclear this statement is, so is life folks.! Not many understand what they are living for. Not all have a hope for tomorrow. Not a few..

Life gets rolling on the wheels of feelings/hopes/fears. Little part of life is affected by real instances/incidents... only a little part.. because, after an Incident, people make it a memory which acts as a cause for 'Feelings/emotions' in the future.

If we Fear an elephant, we don't go near it. You would never want an elephant foot tattoo.
If we Hope for a good Tomorrow, We live for it. we cant get to see tomorrow unless we live for it.
If we have feelings towards someone, we love. not Loving for the feelings to come.

So World is far more ... very deeply emotionalized than we think. Its not the materialized world we are living in. As people are slowly learning....'life's engine runs on the fuel of emotions. not material facts.'

World is returning to innocence as the famous enigma song goes... so smile.
God Bless.

I am waiting for the moment we hold hands...the moment we hold our breath to see the waves shining in the evening sun.... the moment we see each other crisply even when its pitch dark... I am waiting.. i am waiting. even When I am on the top of the world, Its you who would give me the sense to sense that. Its you whom i wanna grow old with

Life bites

If I had a "happenings" section in my life's notice board, i think it will be always filled with notices and newsletters in front of which my angels would stand around. But I dont think I will peek into it very often... especially when God puts up some important event/activity.

Sigh.. really missed some nice.. "happening" moments.

but as always, Thanking God for giving me at least what I have right now :)


ciao.!

Vice Versa

"Life's an illusion without alcohol." a very interesting MSN nick which i saw in my friend list.
izzit just a passing phrase... or izzit worth a thought comparing it to how harmful living in water can be in the case of humans and how deadly it can be when a fish is left in open/pure air where humans can survive.. humm... well.. i surely think thers something to think bout it.

Reborn...everyday. :)

It was 5.45 am. My alarm rang with a sad note. I woke up cursing the need to go to work. The room was cold... ma sheet was giving me endless offers and was luring me...askin me to be under its warmth. I was cryin and cryin inside...Body feels numb. Bending my body to wake up seemed like im detaching myself from a part of my body... :( but.... there is something that makes me smile everyday. :)
wakin up in the Morning.... I feel its like taking another birth...but not from our mother's womb.. Its a Much Lighter version of opening our eyes n crying when we are born after 10 months of comfortable sleep :).

Dawn... Taking another birth into this world from the dream land... from the trance...after taking rest in our nests. wakin up...crying at first... but later when we grow up through the course of the day...we begin to see the realities of life. And before enjoying completely the liesure time after work....forced to fold ourselves in the pupa of dreams and ecstacies till we are born again in the next morning (if we are destined to).

Mornings...We better begin to love them...its our new birth everyday.

God bless

Lets reverse the Butterfly effect...

Scene: outside a hospital. It was raining.... last minutes of a man...lying down on e road... crying aloud to his son... he was muttering something. his son came running to him.. when he tried to listen to his dad carefully... he figured out... Old man was trying to say something which he never followed in his life... which he wanted his son to follow and not to make the same mistake like his dad. he was saying... "son.., family... family comes first.... family.. .." those were his last words... his lips were shivering and suddenly... everything came to an end.

What you jus read above was a scene from the movie- "Click". That movie actually moved ma heart. made me think...about a lot of things which go un-noticed in our lives. The old man was telling something to his son which he "WISH" he did when he could.!... when he was young....

lets all think this way. Before doing something crucial or when u have a bad feeling bout doing somethin, jus imagine ur age is double the age as of now... then being in that age, jus simulate ur brain to be tht much old and find out if u will regret or be happy at that time about the thing u are gonna do now...

well... im sure you all will be regretting of doing something or NOT doing something in the past... but we cant go to the past for sure. but as of now, we can imagine we are in the future and come back to the present and correct our mistakes...
well im leaving this for you to think.. ciao. :)

God bless

Before its too Late

There are things which i did and for which i hated myself... i jus hated doing those.. but i couldn't help but to do it. Lot of things which i couldn't resist.
realization dawns! Regulation is needed in ma life... Ma habits are the ones which i would wanna change. habits can be changed unlike human nature.

When I do something wrong, my conscience hinted me. but i couldn't resist. did all those things which would certainly make me regret in future.i know. i know everything. I tell you... knowing something is wrong and doing it... takes a lot of our life away.. and thinkin bout it agn n agn...feels like our life is evaporating into thin air.

Its crystal clear...habits shape one's character. so change the habits you wanna change or quit.. before it takes a plunge into ur character... and gives a bad time giving it up.

Its all bout time

I've been Askin myself these qtns for a long time. why. why am i addicted to so many things. why do I have a feeling tht im being avoided.. why is it tht i cant stop thinkin bout em... why can't i jus get away from ma habits. good or bad... they are still addictions! And they are distracting me. well it will take time to get answers to ma qtns. till then ma mind is jus empty. ill start writing soon.!

Too Good to be titled :)

Other than the rare sight of a baby sleeping on a really cozy piece of bread instead of having her breakfast, I think this picture has a more lively presence.. if i were some where near by this small sleeping angel.. I would have heard a million testimonies and songs of joy that each light ray will be singing aft hitting and reflecting off that lovely skin of hers. Like plunging into a river of eternity... those rays were lucky enough to hit this blessed child surrounded by angels from heaven... and they seemed more bright like they have regained their youth..
I've always been astonished by the amount of life and e unique inviting charm of infancy she has on her face even when she was fast asleep...

Last but not the least... Hats off to the photographer.. :-)

AND,

The Mortal dedicates this post to You... Its entirely Yours. ;)

Answering heart's call :-)

His Promises...
When He knew his heart will never stop beating for her, even if it does for his own body..,
he just made it sure before he invited her to the throne in his heart.. to become his queen..

When he gets merely washed away by her brilliant charm everytime she is in his arms..,
her Heavenly touch makes every single trinket of his soul to priceless Gems.

When her senses are the most sensitive elements in his heart..,
every single tinge of pain she feels, tears him apart.

When Every beautiful song he hears fills his ears with The magical notes of her love for him which grows more n more...,
he feels like flyin to his princess and singing it to her in e best tone she would wanna hear..

When Nothing in this world beats her... to become his world..,
he would give up anythin on this earth for his world without sayin a word.

When his getting to bed seemed a gateway of dreams bout her... and her thoughts..
she can't be more sure tht shez made for him to Give away all his love... :)

When he realizes these were jus dreams..,
he faces the truth... he knoes there is no one for him to promise... he never had anyone who would count on his promises :)
but he always cruised through the waves of flowery dreams....which are bound to be uncertain in real life.

Freedom: one form for another. ;)

Have you ever wondered which is the sweetest and most promising word you have ever come across.? from those 26 alphabets, three of them were lucky to be a part of the word of my dreams. :) That magical word is none other than- "Free"... its simply a state when we are given the maximum number of options in anything we do. May it be choices we have for the places we wanna go... or a choice to get ur child the most expensive dress in town... or being able to do what ever we want to do at any point of time.

"free"...The state ideally to be attained fully... the state which I would ever live and even die for... the core factor of people's lives.. no matter what ever fortunes are left for us or how ever free we are physically, i think Freedom is not attained without having it in the full shape. What i mean is, if we have the liberty to move around anywhere in the world, its too little to be accumulated as the complete freedom. I think there are so many forms of freedom which are collectively called "Complete freedom"

what im gonna discuss is just too familiar. but these things are not always measured in terms of freedom. And as materialistic and money minded the world has become, First thing to be told is abt money... the word "freedom" is always hidden in this process of churning money using millions of methods... may it be legal or illegal.

But... people always mistook the need of making money which they think is for gaining power. How i wish they will understand one day... money is not for power but simply for gaining a form of FREEDOM. freedom to live without anyone's control over our own needs and sometimes, "wants". freedom to live our own life filled with choices. This is also called financial freedom, often named as power, which is very wrong. I think its the freedom and the ability to solve monetary problems by ourselves, standing on our own legs.

If you have noticed, people often sacrifice one kind of freedom for another. At times, being unfair to their own lives when seen through other's eyes. This is in reverence to the fact that, sadly we cant attain a complete "free" life as long as heaven is not brought down onto this earth. For example, A person going to jail aft committing a crime for making money... is a clear case of sacrificing one's physical freedom (to move around freely) for financial freedom. Or to love someone and sacrifice ur love for Her/Her for not to be distracted in our career/studies etc, can be perceived as a sacrifice of freedom to love for the same financial freedom.

"Prioritize" is the word here. We are supposed to prioritize the different instances of freedom we have in our life, and decide which one to lose for which one. Or is it better to have a little bit of everything.... choice is yours. either way, only one thing is there to be taken care of. Picturize where you will be after a certain period of time, and try to see if you will have regrets for the choice you made.

Never think that you are free when you attain a mere form of freedom. But do feel successful when you have the attained that instance of freedom which you have prioritized in your life as the top one. To be free, i think we have to work to attain that particular form of the freedom first.. and not for absolute freedom in everything (which is Utopian idea), coz the angel of liberty has too many faces to count.

That was too much for a single word- free. but those four letters mean a lot to me :)

God bless.

Melancholy *its all about balance* :)

In the light of that dusky moment when i left behind some real memories in a place where i probably wouldn't go back again in my life... i was stricken by that cruel element i hate.! that very element everyone hates- Sadness. sadness... we would never know when it is gonna start or when its gonna bother us. Before cursing it, i started thinking why this happens in life. why these unpleasant moments... well my inner self answered my question somewhat like this.

All of us know one thing- If there is happiness there is sadness too. but some of us just ignore the fact that, happiness exists only if sadness or melancholy has its existence. If not for sadness, people just wouldn't know when happiness hits them. well... needless to say... happiness is simply the opposite word for sadness. so there is a balance formed here. just like we have Oxygen n carbon dioxide in the atmosphere we live in, I believe, a person should experience sadness to experience happiness in it's full flavor. flavors can be tasted and categorized only if each one has its bitter counterpart.. i believe so.

This can be approached the other way round.! we can even say a human being can only experience melancholy if he had experienced happiness. but this fact is so evident in our lives coz, we really cant forget those moments when our happiness comes to a sad end which we never expected to happen.! whenever a dream is broken, whenever a good thing comes to an end etc. this very fact, we discuss among ourselves too. But what bout the other side?

During grief, we always expect happiness to take over.! at the same time, when we are happy we never hope or expect for sadness to come in. BUT there is always a balance between these two states in our lives. we would never even dare to expect sadness. we cant ever do that... it wont ever look good when we expect some bad news when we are at somebody's wedding. we are humans... so, some of the things, nature has its own triggers... those virtual triggers which can be only touched by God's Good Hands.

well, i didn't mean to say, there will be a opposite state to whatever happy state we are in... just wanted to say that, there are no hidden laws in nature. its just opened up in front of us... and i think one of them is the thing i just discussed about... the perfect balance between Bliss and Sadness, though we work HARD for the former and work even harder to avoid the latter.! :)

So, do Cry when grief strikes... dun pretend ur happy.
Keep smiling when u are blissful :) you never know when its gonna be timed out and grief strikes you.

okay... enuf of this topic.. i have wrote a bit too long, but couldn't help it... signing off for nw... Take carez

God bless

Locking eyes with you

I always feel that there is a silent converstation between two people who have ever looked at each other's eyes. may it be on the road side, in the workplace or in the bus stop. there is always this silent business going on between people. And, i think there is a deeper meaning in this when its the opposite sex. This conversation, only God will know who starts it and who ends it. strange isnt it.!

The word "different" has its meaning right up to the brim for this topic i just thought bout. it has no connection with any one living or dead. :D
two different worldly beings- Male n Female. as you all know, its not only those two heavy letters "F" n "E" that makes the difference.

Female n Male. two distinct formulaic conceptions... completely different worlds like two planets. (or a planet and its satellite :D when the inner/outer beauty is really admired or appreciated), like two kinds of chemicals... which has completely different reactions to the mildest treatment.

people talking bout diverse nature of a region with all the kinds of ppl living in harmony, are so unaware of the harmony in diversity exhibited when these two types of humans live together- Males n Females.

Well, giving it a deeper thought bout how these two types of creations live n let live the other, given that they will have love for each other and at the same time, bitterness over some things. one of the reasons may be the hormonal attraction both have towards each other. Mebbe because of the silent conversations going on each moment when they are together. the thoughts and things they share. willingness to adjust etc.

thoughts are jus overflowing in my mind. and i fear they may cross the limit.

lastly.. these are all jus mere.. random thoughts which i stumble upon when i just happen to use my brain to think.! on this note, me back to dreamworld :) laterz then :)

God Bless.