October 29, 2008

Crammed journey. !^%$#@

The Following text is a sketch of my mind during my journey to work ONLY. Spoiler alert: Lot of negative energy!
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ARGGHH. I really have to go to an open place n shout! ALL thEsE.!




DREAMS BROKE,! EYES ARE OPENED WITH A CREAKY SOUND..
ROOM TO BATHROOM!!! WITH ONLY ONE THOUGHT IN MIND.. TO SLEEP! AND WIND.

HOUSE DOOR SHUT OR NOT SHUT! WHO CARES.! JOINTS IN MY LEGS RESISTS TO MOBILISE THE BODY ABOVE.....
LIKE THEY NEED A LUBRICANT TO MOVE...

ELEVATORS SHOULD HAVE COZY SOFAS... WHERE I STAND LIKE A MAN WHO HAS A BULLET SHOT ON HIS BACK!.

WALK.. WALK... WHERE IS THE LRT... WALK... WALK..

steps... MY LIFETIME ENEMY..! STILL CLIMBING STEPS..WOW.! REACHED LRT.. TAPPING ON THE GATE...HAHAH MY EZLINK VALUE. -2.20. HAVE TO TOP UP.. THE MACHINE SAYS!

PULLING MY BODY TO THE SIDE... I FEEL LIKE THE MUSCULAR FORCE THAT I PUT IN TO MOVE MY BODY, IS BEING WASTED FOR EXTRA FRICTION..!!!!!!!!!

CHAPTER.1.- FREEZING
VILLAIN: L.R.T
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LRT.. THE REFRIGERATOR. BLOWS THE ARCTIC ICE RIGHT INTO MY CONGESTED THROAT... WOW.. WHAT A FEELING. OUT OF THE WORLD FEELING.

CHAPTER 2.- RUNNING BEHIND SLEEP.
VILLAIN: M.R.T GRRRRRRRRRRrrr

REACHING PUNGGOL. GOT DOWN FROM THE COOLER COMPARTMENT. RUNNING FOR THE TRAIN SHIVERING.
INSIDE THE TRAIN..! TRAIN ALMOST FILLED THOUGH PUNGGOL IS THE FIRST STATION.(PPL FROM OTHER STATIONS GET INTO THE TRAIN TILL LAST STATION TO GET SEATS)
WELL.. ALWAYS MANAGE TO GET A SEAT. TRAIN DEPARTS.
I TRY TO CLOSE MY EYES. .BUT CANT SLEEP. I TRY DIFFERENT BODY POSITIONS BEING CRAMMED IN MY SEAT. SOMETIMES I USE MY LAPTOP BAG AS A PILLOW N JUST CROUCH MYSELF..! GOD.. I DUNNO Y ITS NOT WORKING EITHER. BODY IS PAINING LIKE A.N.Y.T.H.I.N.G.!! CAN NEVER SLEEP.! SO JUST CONTINUED TO CLOSE MY EYES!
HEARD ANNOUNCEMENT: NEXT STATION: HARBOURFRONT. MY STATION. JUS 3 MINS AWAY....I THINK THATS THE MAGICAL PHRASE WHICH SETS MY ENTIRE BODY TO SLEEP.! I SLEEP SOUNDLY.................................................................SUDDENLY WAKING UP TO AN OFFICER SAYING THIS IS THE LAST STATION. REALISING I SHOULD GET UP... BUT EXPERIENCING THE SAME LETHARGIC FEELING AS WAKING UP FROM BED.! GOD...

GOT DOWN.. WALKING TOWARDS TAPPING AREA TO GET OUT ... WALKED TO THE BUS STOP.. . . .. SOME PPL WOULD FEEL THAT IM WALKING ASLEEP...!!! WITH MY HEADS BOWED...EYES ARE BARELY OPEN... ONLY THING THT SEEMS ALIVE IS MY LEG!!!

CHAPTER 3. SBS TRANSIT...COZY ONE..THE BUS COMES..! 166 OR 97.... TRUELY SPEAKING... THIS 15 MINS BUS RIDE TO SCIENCE PARK HEALS THE FRUSTRATION AND MADNESS IN MY MIND. FEELS LIKE HEAVEN!

October 16, 2008

Thoughts are the most efficient fuels for life.

Not many. Not all. Not a few. as unclear this statement is, so is life folks.! Not many understand what they are living for. Not all have a hope for tomorrow. Not a few..

Life gets rolling on the wheels of feelings/hopes/fears. Little part of life is affected by real instances/incidents... only a little part.. because, after an Incident, people make it a memory which acts as a cause for 'Feelings/emotions' in the future.

If we Fear an elephant, we don't go near it. You would never want an elephant foot tattoo.
If we Hope for a good Tomorrow, We live for it. we cant get to see tomorrow unless we live for it.
If we have feelings towards someone, we love. not Loving for the feelings to come.

So World is far more ... very deeply emotionalized than we think. Its not the materialized world we are living in. As people are slowly learning....'life's engine runs on the fuel of emotions. not material facts.'

World is returning to innocence as the famous enigma song goes... so smile.
God Bless.

I am waiting for the moment we hold hands...the moment we hold our breath to see the waves shining in the evening sun.... the moment we see each other crisply even when its pitch dark... I am waiting.. i am waiting. even When I am on the top of the world, Its you who would give me the sense to sense that. Its you whom i wanna grow old with

April 10, 2008

Life bites

If I had a "happenings" section in my life's notice board, i think it will be always filled with notices and newsletters in front of which my angels would stand around. But I dont think I will peek into it very often... especially when God puts up some important event/activity.

Sigh.. really missed some nice.. "happening" moments.

but as always, Thanking God for giving me at least what I have right now :)



ciao.!

March 26, 2008

Vice Versa

"Life's an illusion without alcohol." a very interesting MSN nick which i saw in my friend list.
izzit just a passing phrase... or izzit worth a thought comparing it to how harmful living in water can be in the case of humans and how deadly it can be when a fish is left in open/pure air where humans can survive.. humm... well.. i surely think thers something to think bout it.

February 17, 2008

Reborn...everyday. :)

It was 5.45 am. My alarm rang with a sad note. I woke up cursing the need to go to work. The room was cold... ma sheet was giving me endless offers and was luring me...askin me to be under its warmth. I was cryin and cryin inside...Body feels numb. Bending my body to wake up seemed like im detaching myself from a part of my body... :( but.... there is something that makes me smile everyday. :)
wakin up in the Morning.... I feel its like taking another birth...but not from our mother's womb.. Its a Much Lighter version of opening our eyes n crying when we are born after 10 months of comfortable sleep :).

Dawn... Taking another birth into this world from the dream land... from the trance...after taking rest in our nests. wakin up...crying at first... but later when we grow up through the course of the day...we begin to see the realities of life. And before enjoying completely the liesure time after work....forced to fold ourselves in the pupa of dreams and ecstacies till we are born again in the next morning (if we are destined to).

Mornings...We better begin to love them...its our new birth everyday.

God bless

February 14, 2008

Lets reverse the Butterfly effect...


Scene: outside a hospital. It was raining.... last minutes of a man...lying down on e road... crying aloud to his son... he was muttering something. his son came running to him.. when he tried to listen to his dad carefully... he figured out... Old man was trying to say something which he never followed in his life... which he wanted his son to follow and not to make the same mistake like his dad. he was saying... "son.., family... family comes first.... family.. .." those were his last words... his lips were shivering and suddenly... everything came to an end.

What you jus read above was a scene from the movie- "Click". That movie actually moved ma heart. made me think...about a lot of things which go un-noticed in our lives. The old man was telling something to his son which he "WISH" he did when he could.!... when he was young....

lets all think this way. Before doing something crucial or when u have a bad feeling bout doing somethin, jus imagine ur age is double the age as of now... then being in that age, jus simulate ur brain to be tht much old and find out if u will regret or be happy at that time about the thing u are gonna do now...

well... im sure you all will be regretting of doing something or NOT doing something in the past... but we cant go to the past for sure. but as of now, we can imagine we are in the future and come back to the present and correct our mistakes...
well im leaving this for you to think.. ciao. :)

God bless

January 29, 2008

Before its too Late

There are things which i did and for which i hated myself... i jus hated doing those.. but i couldn't help but to do it. Lot of things which i couldn't resist.
realization dawns! Regulation is needed in ma life... Ma habits are the ones which i would wanna change. habits can be changed unlike human nature.

When I do something wrong, my conscience hinted me. but i couldn't resist. did all those things which would certainly make me regret in future.i know. i know everything. I tell you... knowing something is wrong and doing it... takes a lot of our life away.. and thinkin bout it agn n agn...feels like our life is evaporating into thin air.

Its crystal clear...habits shape one's character. so change the habits you wanna change or quit.. before it takes a plunge into ur character... and gives a bad time giving it up.

January 24, 2008

Its all bout time

I've been Askin myself these qtns for a long time. why. why am i addicted to so many things. why do I have a feeling tht im being avoided.. why is it tht i cant stop thinkin bout em... why can't i jus get away from ma habits. good or bad... they are still addictions! And they are distracting me. well it will take time to get answers to ma qtns. till then ma mind is jus empty. ill start writing soon.!

January 13, 2008

Too Good to be titled :)

Other than the rare sight of a baby sleeping on a really cozy piece of bread instead of having her breakfast, I think this picture has a more lively presence.. if i were some where near by this small sleeping angel.. I would have heard a million testimonies and songs of joy that each light ray will be singing aft hitting and reflecting off that lovely skin of hers. Like plunging into a river of eternity... those rays were lucky enough to hit this blessed child surrounded by angels from heaven... and they seemed more bright like they have regained their youth..
I've always been astonished by the amount of life and e unique inviting charm of infancy she has on her face even when she was fast asleep...

Last but not the least... Hats off to the photographer.. :-)


AND,

The Mortal dedicates this post to You... Its entirely Yours. ;)

January 6, 2008

Answering heart's call :-)


His Promises...
When He knew his heart will never stop beating for her, even if it does for his own body..,
he just made it sure before he invited her to the throne in his heart.. to become his queen..

When he gets merely washed away by her brilliant charm everytime she is in his arms..,
her Heavenly touch makes every single trinket of his soul to priceless Gems.

When her senses are the most sensitive elements in his heart..,
every single tinge of pain she feels, tears him apart.

When Every beautiful song he hears fills his ears with The magical notes of her love for him which grows more n more...,
he feels like flyin to his princess and singing it to her in e best tone she would wanna hear..

When Nothing in this world beats her... to become his world..,
he would give up anythin on this earth for his world without sayin a word.

When his getting to bed seemed a gateway of dreams bout her... and her thoughts..
she can't be more sure tht shez made for him to Give away all his love... :)

When he realizes these were jus dreams..,
he faces the truth... he knoes there is no one for him to promise... he never had anyone who would count on his promises :)
but he always cruised through the waves of flowery dreams....which are bound to be uncertain in real life.